“Perhaps the greatest test Bahá’ís are ever subjected to is from each other; but for the sake of the Master they should be ever ready to overlook each other’s mistakes, apologize for harsh words they have uttered, forgive and forget. He strongly recommends to you this course of action.”
(From a letter written on behalf of the Guardian to an individual believer, February 18, 1945; Living the Life, p. 12)
surprisingly, this is something i've been faced with for the past month now. in a number of different formats. and it hasn't been as easy to deal with as i would have thought. but i am trying to overlook other's mistakes and to love them for the sake of God.
"These were people, waiting for their lives to begin, people who for all their manifestations of depression and grunge and loneliness, were secretly full of optimism and promise and the blazing, glorious arrogance of youth. Their mistakes didn't count, because their Real Lives hadn't yet begun. Things could change for them in an instant." --Cathi Hanauer
i feel as though this is quickly becoming no longer applicable to me. i am losing my optimism and far worse, i feel like i'm losing my potential. this in-between stage is a bit of an uncomfortable one. done with school, yet not quite completely an adult just yet. living for myself, yet not as selfishly as before because i need to focus more strongly on being a capable, independent woman. trying to figure out the future, leaving room for spontaneity but knowing full well that sometimes you need some set plans.
i feel like i am wasting my time, slowly atrophying. that even though i have beautiful plans that are being set in motion they are still too far away in the future. all this time that could be used doing something incredibly positive is being wasted. and although i have mini projects that i have been working on, the desire to do more and bigger is still there. thankfully, our 10th ipg starts this weekend. i think a few weekends of intensive teaching, followed by tutoring at project mona sounds like a good cure.
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