today i learned that my heart is still alive and that maybe i am willing to let people into my life again.

i was waiting a long time for this lesson to find me. sincerest of thanks.

it always comes back to the summer of 2005

'you get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place, i told him, like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you'll never be this way ever again.'

--azar nafisi

the next month is going to be such a time of intense healing and happiness. my heart is bursting just thinking about it.