It's time.

SO....I'm not really sure what to say. I just know that I said I would update this sometime soon, and that's really the only reason why I'm doing this. Because I have no idea what to say.

I think I'm getting better. I think I'm finally starting to let things go. As hard as it is for me, I know that I need to do this. It's been a month, which is enough time that I figure it means something. Right? I don't even know. I just know enough to know that I'm royally confused on this matter, and have been for the last.....oh, 3 or 4 months. But as much as I'm letting go, I still can't lose my hope that somehow, somewhere down the line, things will change and turn out the way that I want it to. For once, I just want things to work out.

I realized I've lost the little moments. And I'm working on getting them back. Which has been hard with this other thing lurking constantly in the background. But I figure I haven't been letting myself be happy for too long and that definitely needs to change. So the little moments...are slowly coming back and being appreciated as they should be.

Fall Break....I'm so thankful for it at this point. I'm so drained...physically, mentally, and more than anything else emotionally, and I really need this break.

Speaking of breaks, I can NOT wait for Christmas Break. Like at all. And Thanksgiving. Oh, goodness. This semester has been good, but I am just really looking forward to the end of this semester for so many reasons and I am super excited.

Yeah, I can totally see how this entry is going to be confusing to anyone but me. But, maybe that's just the way I roll. Right...