the last month and a half has been so utterly full. of both good and bad. excitement. new experiences. intense focus.
i left behind some people that i love oh so very dearly
and met some people who i am learning to love on a daily basis.
as much as some days i am filled with loneliness, i find that i am surrounded by laughter. and deep down, i still have this feeling (however small it feels at times) that i am in the right place.
but today, oh today. i had lunch with a very dear friend and was filled with happiness and love. but at the same time, such intense......sadness isn't quite the right word. it was a mixture of comfort and familiarity, mixed with this unknown sorrow. it mostly left me feeling unsettled, and, in a weird way, full of longing for something i have yet to experience.
